Nine months on, how do I feel?

Matthew’s passing was really real.

Life goes on as they say, I carry on day to day, looking for meaning and purpose in my life.

Life goes on all around me. I should be happy now I am free!

To do what I want and go in any direction that suits me.

I miss him, he was a big part of my life for forty four years. I miss the people who supported him, I sit here feeling alone trying to dry my tears.

Grief is something one cannot deny, even each passing day I try to deny those feelings that make me cry.